A New Beginning

Isaiah Chapter 43

¹⁸ Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old.

¹⁹ Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, [and] rivers in the desert.

When one thinks of a "new start or beginning", there are sorts of thoughts, feelings, and other attributes to this phrase. Yet when I think of a new start, I think of a Refreshing. 

For the past three years, I have been in a "resting" position. I wanted to do so much and yet I was at plateau  I watched others move forward with their journey and I remained at the same level. I asked God "When will it be my turn? When will school be over, I receive my degree and be free to leave this area?". I was met with silence. So I began to do busy work, joined the church choir, filled every second in my day with something, and made sure I prayed and read my Bible. But I got to the point where the busy work wasn't enough to drown out the silence. I began loosing passion for my leadership position with the Singles Ministry, the choir began to wear on me, and the prayers were beginning to become repetitive and mundane  I was at a point where the nagging in my head was overpowering my heart. And then things started to fall apart: 

• I was in car accident. A few days later, my nephew died.
• My house was broken into and my laptop, along with some other things, was stolen.
• One of my closest friends revealed that she did not consider me to be a friend. She fired off her list of my indiscretions and stopped associating with me. 
• School was pounding...

And the list went on and on. 

I finally broke down and started acting out... And I became very angry with everything and anyone who dared told me "It will be okay." It felt hopeless. I had no one to turn to and nothing to hold on to... or so I thought.

God began sending life-savers to help me get back to the shore. I didn't realize the life-preservers coming my way, but God was in control.

God is a constant force that surpasses all of life's obstacles. He remains ever present in the mist of life's storms and continues to be a strong hold, even when we are losing sight of the promise. Hebrews 13:5 is the bases of this promise of continue partnership with God. He gives us hope when the world is dark and lifeless. He loves us past our faults, brokenness, and countless downfalls. He reaches into the abyss and returns us back to the life which he designed for us. If like me, you are in constant questioning of when "its" going to happen, learn to wait upon the Lord. The Lord gives us what we need, when we are prepared to partake of that blessing.

How do you handle being in the "waiting phase"?